A new set of values???

​What did I want from this life?

Did I understand as I stumbled through?

Planning. No more like serendipity 

With no direction what have I missed?

With reaction rather than considered action

What crass decisions have I made?

How have those decisions  rolled out across the the cosmos?

How have those ripples impacted on others?

Who have I hurt without thought?

With a philosophy of caring for others

Have I actually been guilty of being egotistical and uncaring?

What do I want from this life?

Maybe a new set of values

Make my toes curl

​Passion errupting, emotions leap and twirl

Hearing your voice makes my toes curl

Heated in the moment of new lovers bliss

Sealing the deal with a never ending kiss

Anticipation growing filling the cup

Your touch, lights my world,up 

Hearing you whisper, you are my girl

That little statement makes my toes curl

Dilemma 

​Dilemma

Jump into the abyss

What will my landing be

Will I hit the labyrinth 

Will you be there to catch me

Treasure

Explore the winding paths together

What will my role be

Will we explore, a joint endeavour 

Will you smother me

Dilemma 

Checkmate

Checkmate, parlous state

Playing games, no rebate

Trying moves, pulling strokes

Checkmate, making jokes
Cruel puns, not shared laughter

Scoring points couldn’t be dafter

Checkmate trust revoked, poor trait

Checkmate learning to hate,  is it all too late?
Reset the game, change the rules

Checkmate in life could be for fools

Checkmate put in context

Relationship rebate, delete the contest.

clickety clack

​Hurtling forward 

Clickety clack

The train is speeding, down a new track

The signals are red

But I can’t slow it down

Maybe I should be dressed as a clown

You are the buffers

You will hold me close

Render me speechless, make me feel most

You are the danger

The spark to my flame

Racing to you with no ounce if shame

Drifting

​Words of love often suppressed

 Kindness taken for granted, unexpressed

Presumption of thoughts, norms and dreams

Seems we no longer talk of schemes

Drifting along feather light

Lack of communication lack of fight

Minds door closed 

How to rewind, do you suppose

Need to look and see the whole

Can we clean the windows, throw light on the soul

View the other objectively, eschew control

Or are doors locked tight, welded shut

Will we live our lives, forever stuck

Viewing each other from a place unexposed

Not pushing the gate for a loving repose

Words of love often unexpressed

Relationship sunk into mindlessness

He loves me……not

​He loves me he loves me not

I am me I almost forgot

Better to be true to me

Than to try to be somebody else, for him to see

Its so nice to have loving affirmation

But staying true to self that’s confirmation

We walk the path and share the joys

Also the angst that life employs

If I develop and become fullfilled

Meet my true potential, it should keep him thrilled

If he wants to dictate

The total way I operate

Maybe he just wants a woman that meets his expectations

A clone, not a good relationship foundation

He loves me he loves me not

The fog that you left

​Mist rising upwards like gossamer threads

Clearing my mind from the fog, that you left

Treading in circles, the pathway obscured

The mist is slowly burning off, a signpost has cleared

Chosing a way to move forward in my life

Tears replaced, smiling revived