Nemesis 

​Black with eight legs sitting in the corner

Web nicely built quite a transformer

Sure to eat the flies, must be good order

What makes me freak out, I am not a barn stormer

Not sure if it was eye contact, but both went rigid 

Want it out my house, thats my baser instinct

I need my new weapon to banish it from my life

Might be a flamethrower, but thats too much strife

I back out the door, watching it all the while

Need to turn my back to reach into a pile

I reach for the catcher and remove its cap

Test all the mechanisms, ready for spider  zap

Back with the spider now have to be so brave

After all its maybe half an inch and I am a six foot knave

Eyes swivelling wildly I turn the machine to suck

Poke it towards it, it works thats good luck

Spider in the tube, should I put on the cap

Maybe not that brave it might land in my lap

Catcher held out in front of me,leave the sucker on 

Run for the window I shake the tube, is it gone?

Oh no the little varmint is crouching looking at me

Now I am wondering, which of us should flee

I shake it out again and this time it has gone

Slam the window shut, Poor spider was I wrong?

Half an hour ago I was sleepy ready for bed

Now my veins are pumping adrenaline instead

Open book?

​I wish you could read  the book, that is me,

Although the chapters are muddled, looseleaf, free,

I feel self fulfilled most of the time,

Or brimming with emotion, often undefined,

Passionate, energetic, a lover of learning,

Apathetic and lazy, my negatives churning,

I want to put everything right,with the world, 

To make a difference not remain unheard,
My heads full of secrets I would rather keep,

 Guarding them hidden even when I sleep,

I wish you could interprete the book that is me,

Tease out the contradictions, help me set them free
Confident, articulate, a natural leader

Shy, unsure, more of a reciever

Am Trying to fit into the crazy world

Am I out in the world or hidden under the bed,

Maybe you can tell, I would rather not dwell, 

Am I trying to fit into this crazy world,

Or being myself unreserved, 
I think you will have to read my book, 

Find out for yourself, check the whole, don’t overlook,

I hope you will see someone open and caring,

With a sense of humour meant for sharing,

I am not a totally open book.

Light me a spark

​Light me a spark

Thats a good start

Show me the essence,

 of you

Then I can view, 

you true

My heart and mind remain open 

To possibilities, 

full of emotion

Lets relax and go with the flow

Early days,lets just get to know

Each other

Will this feeling grow

Beyond the first kisses glow

Head first into bliss

Or will the arrow miss?

On line Friendship

We met on a word game, in cyberspace

We got on well we bonded and chased

We talked and shared, our lives our schemes

Hard to remember, it is a fantasy, a dream

For we only know the other, from the information shared

Keeping secrets, though the soul seems bared

We share our lives, from our own point of view

Not a rounded version from others too

We share an oasis, from life’s woes and cares

We are friends indulging in a cyber-affair

We share great intimacy, its exotic erotic

But its words and pictures, it’s only symbolic

It revs up our hormones and gives us a thrill

Feels so real our needs to fulfil

We find so much in common, it gives us a high

We see the nice bits, not the grumps or the cry

We have a view of another’s life

Sharing the pleasures and some of the strife

We need to remember while the interaction is real

Our mind adds in details, too many, surreal

But the real world comes first, has to be the case

Fantasy is just that, it may have a place

Enjoy the moments the tingle and the fun

If your emotions entangle, it’s time to run

Understand the rule,s keep them in mind

Then friendship not heartbreak will be

The bottom line.

 

Dedicated to all those who meet and interact on line. Relates to Converging Lives the novel.

Looking for love with that certain someone.

​Are you still looking for that special person ….the only one for you.
The person you are destined to be with. Do you think that only one person in this world exists for you? If that is  true, if every person had only one perfect match, and only one person to make them happy. Then it means love will be limited to that person and you will never be complete without them! 

What happens if you never meet?
Maybe you should consider that there are many compatible individuals out there.
So where does love come from how does it start? For many people looking for love it is the spark that is the signal,  but sometimes the spark is pure animal lust that when satisfied leaves mild attraction only, it is a product of mind and hormones. Sure you need attraction its part of the recipe but what about the other givens, is your list of must haves very long and non negotiable? Do you discard people after the first date if they dont meet up with everyone of your expectations? 
If you are searching for that special someone or are starting again. You have to go back to basics and look within. The starting place for love is with yourself, you have to love yourself , you have to look at the reasons love has failed in the past. Whilst it might be nice to put the blame totally on others for failure there has to be an element within your behaviour  or beliefs that is stalling love developing. Maybe something from long ago stored in the recesses of your memory long forgotten. 
In order to be loved you have to radiate love, be a beacon so that others are attracted to you. You need to love yourself, love life be happy with the world. 

You do all that already? You know your hang ups ? But you need somebody else to make you happy?

Nobody can make you truly happy its a state of mind within yourself. 
Think again if everybody you meet is incompatible there is something within you, perhaps you are  being judgemental, or not drawing them to you. 
If you can become a beacon of love and contentedness then you will be a magnet for friends, family and that special person you are searching for. 
Stop dreaming of perfection in others and look to your own inner happiness, then start checking out the people around you. You will react to them differently you will not be needy for love, and that will be a sea change in how they react to you.You don’t have to compromise on the qualities you feel you need in your partner but you will become more open to the form they are packaged in. 
Dont be constrained by looking for the one perfect individual, look with all encompassing love at a wider pool. Dont be blinkered by the fantasy in your head. Work on being more loving, working on misplaced beliefs. Live your life and get the best from each moment, be happy and love will find you.